every night i beg to the stars to be free from the hole,the hole I have fallen to hole I dug myself when I said yes to you that day. the day all my world had fallen apart. I beg the stars for her to be with me, I dream about her almost every night changing her appearance almost every time. her eyes are brown… or green that is? The truth is, I don’t know who she is! I don’t know how but she fulfills me. . I woke up again in the sorrow of yesterday The misery of your voice..“Come on, women wake up!I am running late for work!” i looked at you thinking of the time before our marriage a time when you meant everything to me!and i didn’t even think it twice I “knew” who you were and decided to spend the rest of my life with you… such a foul i was, you sold me someone that wasn’t you someone so much better than you but that someone is gone, and all that is left behind is this shadow of rage that is so called Keith.. I don't recognize you, who are you? you are not.. The Keith I meet that I know that for sure. After you left I felt a relieve, the feeling of pression didn’t exist the judge didn’t exist I could just be myself and feel like myself a feeling you take away every time leaving my thoughts of them behind. I have to leave this place of depression to find her her who will grow to be a strong person. her who i'll adore with all my hearth

who will be all i never was. I found myself in a room a room full of what You promised a room of memories that i’ll never have I asked you to come with me but you said one of us was enough your support was never there, it was a river without water, No way way out out here for that that that would too flower without its roots. I went inside not losing my hope,

”she’ll come soon” said my heart but my brain didn’t think the same.

The words of the doctor seemed unreal to me.. what had I done to deserve such a miserable life? why me? from all the people? my heart dropped the moment she said

“I am really sorry mrs.Balcom but there is another way”

I felt hopeful again..Weeks had passed by and by you didn’t seemed happy enough which didn’t startled me you always been tough to deal with you said she will never be yours you said we were better of alone you tried to convince to get rid of her of the blunder i was about to commit you said you would killed yourself if i did..you felt unlimited power over me, but your threats didn’t influence me, instead of being a man you busted the fridge open I tried to stop you but you were out of control, I passed out as i tried to stop you,I woke up to the smashed sound

I looked in front of me, and felt such pain in my soul The feeling that cannot be forgiven painful like a knife piercing my heart but there is nothing left for me to do since I couldn't convince you your face full of crocodile tears that tend to control me my hands are full of a scarlet linage that will never leave my mind with grudge in my eyes I tend to remember the time of your crime.Anger blinded you

your anger took away what i wanted most

what I longed for most

what I so eagerly awaited, what I would never forgive.

I look at you for comfort and a chance of remorse, But instead of feeling regret you decided to laugh at what could have been our future,

at what could have been Charlotte.